Ancestors and lessons on Presence

Oct 16

Written By Denisse Ferreira

navigating the fear of repeating ancestral patterns

I created this space because of my ancestors

My lineage holds a lot of escapism tendencies

My father’s looking to the past

My mother’s looking to the future

It is freeing for me to have this awareness

Every time I feel my lack of impact, its both painful and liberating

I’ve spent years on a hamster wheel trying to catch up with time, to make everything count. Everything as in: making my life valuable

But these little pieces of joy, pride and accomplishment have not happened from trying to realize what my mind fantasizes about. These moments of unforgettable memories have been challenges and opportunities presented where I fully decided to be present and act in the moment

Only then I’ve touched paradise

And yet, fantasies of what I haven’t experienced have drowned sometimes these joyful memories

I’ve become less human and more hamster the more I age and the fear of having an existence with no reputable career takes over

My ancestors have impacted me in such a way, that the pain I’ve felt finding the similarities in our lives without having ever heard their stories, has made me more scared of continuing the patterns. But at the same time it has reminded me how many times I’ve changed course and how much I can change from now on

Awareness brings change, mostly because when we sit with what is happening, then we are able to listen and take a different action than what we are programmed to

'Action' is what keeps us in the present, 'thinking' keeps us everywhere else

Listening is presence in action

What our ancestors have to offer now is a story for us to listen

So listen.

xoxo, dens

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