Does biology interfere with your desires?
Creating new patterns and new generational cycles
Gene inheritance is one of the fundamentals of our evolution.
Nature vs Nurture?
More like Nature AND Nurture, and that brings me to the topic of today.
Starting a New habit
I’ve been wandering for months why filming myself for strangers to see feels like such hard work, even though I can do it for myself (I still sweat like I did a full workout) and although sometimes I enjoy it its still not a sustainable activity for me to indulge in. Feels like hard work, something that for others its like taking a picture you'll never show.
Nobody in my family before me has ever done this. My lineage has never been exposed to public speaking, even my teacher grandmother stayed within the walls of small schools for children. Not a voice has even have to be spoken loud and clear for an auditorium.
And then there’s nurture
The lack of support and encouragement has affected me big time the moments I've been wanting to do it for myself, when the desire to be exposed has driven me towards a spotlight, a camera and so on, I've faced judgement and harsh criticism and an environment like an island with no crowd.
This is why I feel that when there's something new to try, it's best to start within the confines of your comfort zone and build from there, unless you can access the full scope of diving in completely, something I've done in different topics of my life.
Leaving home
I left my country at the age of 23 years old, completely dived into the reality of being an immigrant, the survival and being on my own with no safety net. And yet I still compared this to my mother leaving her city, perhaps not such a harsh experience but still daring, risky and with it's own set of obstacles and difficulties.
our ancestor’s inheritance
I don't know how biology plays a role in involving ourselves in certain types of activities, but seeing how my environment never nurtured my desires definitely showed me that nature and nurture are necessary when pursuing a goal, because creating a pattern can be as hard as breaking it.
I also think that we get to water the seeds that our ancestors left for us, perhaps they never faced my difficulties with public speaking, but maybe they faced other difficulties that now I take for granted and which are essential for me to take another path and with that, other challenges.
Repetition, Nature, Nurture, Environment. These seem to be keywords in creating a new loop.
What do you struggle with that your ancestors have never done before you?
xoxo, denisse.
